“You call me your best friend ? I'm flattered but no thanks.”

I believe that everybody has a friend. An imaginary friend, a close friend or even a best friend, there are many kind of friends. Some people have best friends, some don’t. Some people think that making a friend is difficult but the truth is making it last long is the true challenge. The ones that have best friends in their life may know and understand what a friend is and what the meaning of friendship is. I, personally, do not know what a friend is, how to make a friend, and how to keep it last long. However I happen to have a lot of friends. I don’t have best friends though for now, there isn’t best friend in my dictionary. I used to think that ‘hey, this is my best friend’ but I know now it takes like years to make this person to  have the position. It is just more complicated than I thought.

I have experienced many things dealing with friendship. First, my very close friend moved out without telling me and oh my, I cried for days. The second was back to my high school, there was this girl. We used to travel together and I even took her to visit my grandma with my family. Unfortunately it didn’t work out. Lastly it just happened to me last weekend. I don’t know if this is because I’m a girl and makes this difficult but I know this matters to me, this person matters to me and it bothers me so much when things go wrong. Let’s focus on the last experience I mentioned above.

       Lately I feel like my close friend have been drifting apart. Back then we were always together most of the time. I was happy because I was not going so well with my classmates. We shared things like music, food, our dreams and stuff. Long story short she dated a boy. She still dates him. I am very okay with that, in fact I’m happy. However it makes us drift apart. She spends most of her time with him. Sometimes she does text me but we never really spend time together. At the first time of dating she still talked to me, shared her problems with me. Now we barely talked. If we meet in school she just happens to have something to do. Two days ago I sent her a text that I missed her and I was really upset and mad at her. Yesterday she replied me but in her text she asked me to check her emails and I did. Turned out, it was a prank. I didn’t understand, why she was so insensitive. She didn’t say sorry or check how I was doing. She just rambled about the problems she faced now and those made her thinking, sad and prevented her for meeting me. She changed. If something bad happens to you, you either go to your parents or your boyfriends/girlfriends or your close friends right ? then what the hell didn’t she tell me ? why did she tell me after I confronted to her that she drifted away ? oh right, I guess because she has a fricking boyfriend. She could have said sorry but she didnt. She doesn't feel sorry.

       What makes me really disappointed is long time ago when things were good, she addressed me that I was her best friend. At that time I didn’t think that she was my best friend too but because I wanted to appreciate her I also called her my best friend. It changes now. Clearly she doesn’t know how to be a best friend.

       I am good now. I don’t care anymore. All I have to do is not to do my mistake anymore, not to let anybody go too deep in my life and to be a good friend to anyone who can and know how to be a friend. 

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